friday thoughts

should i care? i mean like, this is how its like normally? this is how the world works right? i find myself building this armor again, closing myself off. i dont even wanna talk about it. why am i even writing this? i dont know. i feel like im going into the old ways of thinking and acting. people tell me that is a bad thing but what do they know about me. i dont think anyone really gets me.

when i die

when i die lay me down on a bed of flowers

when i die we dont have to count the hours

it will all be gone and all be laid to rest

and instead of being sad thinking of how we were blessed

dont put me in the ground to rot

make me fly from my favorite spot

over mountains, hills and seas

far away you can always feel me in the breeze

and every tear that from your eyes will fall

and every night when you my name will call

think of the happy times we had together

then i will in your heart be forever.

i felt like writing something today. this was the best i could do.

almost there

i'm almost at the finish line of working towards my vacation i've been longing for so long. it seems like ages ago we sat down at the kitchen table in march and booked my 3 week trip to america. now i'm here and it's so exciting i don't even know where to turn. the best of all is of course that i get to spend this experience with him. he is excited too, but i think he is most excited about being able to bitch slap "the real world" in my face and see the reaction. whatever though honey, doesn't matter.

my room looks like a freaking mess of course, since i have to start packing "so early". my friend called me to day from the hospital and told me that i was crazy. i cried cause i didn't know that he was okay until i heard his voice. the world is smiling towards me. i wonder if the last 3 days are gonna move too fast so that i feel stressed out over not having time to prepare or if they're gonna move slow and i'm gonna die of boredom.

arhg! i can't wait!

happy birthday sweden

you can't change who you are or where you come from. and you should never feel the need to change it either.

can't stop thinking

spring

everything is a once in a life time experience.

the way you make me feel

you make me feel like the kiss on times square.