Oh come on, grow up!

Sometimes I feel like I have something to prove, that no one is really happy with what I'm doing or with what I want to do. I'm sure that everyone feels like this sometimes but to be honest with you I just want it to be over. I hate when people tell me to grow up and stop dreaming. Fuck you, I'm gonna continue until I wanna do something else. Maybe I should do what other people tell me to but for some pathetic reason I feel like that would be self-betrayal.

An other thing, why is it that I always try to be there for people but when I need some one there is hardly any one there? I guess it's a part of the "growing up" stuff again.

No, fuck this I'm gonna be grown up today and stop being teenage negative about things. I slept like 3 hours and I don't want to go back to sleep cause he's waking me up again and I can't deal with the past right now, the present is enough. Good god, what a lot of crap I've written... Please scratch it out and we'll never talk about it again.