i hate myself... i just woke up and i have ruined christmas for my entire family. i feel like i deserve to be hanged by santa himself. have you ever ruined christmas? well if you have, then you know how i guilty i feel. they were all looking forward to seeing each other and give gifts and eat nice food. now all that is gone cause i'm fucking sick and it's only getting worse. i told mom that there if there is anything i will not do is spending my christmas in hospital so we are staying home. believe me i tried to make them go to my cousin to see the rest of the family but they wont, they say i'm confused due to my high fever if i think that they would leave me alone on christmas. i don't care what they say i know for a fact that i'm not losing my mind. i'm not allowed out of bed in 4 hours because mom is nursing me. she is laughing and saying that she thought that she had the holidays off from working at the hospital. like that would make me feel better. i have lost my voice, literally, so i can't say anything and i can't even pick up the phone and tell my relatives i'm sorry and merry christmas. well this is my christmas 2010 obviously, the christmas i ruined.
happy holidays everyone.
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