about a year ago it happened, life was turned upside down and twisted around in different and unexpected ways. i still think about it sometimes, but not so much about what happened but more how it changed me and the way i think.
when something happens that i have a hard time dealing with i first go crazy cause i'm not in control. i cry, i panic and then i fall asleep. like a child.
after this the time of reflection comes. introvert, silence and lonely.
and finally, where i find my self now, i deny that it ever had an effect on me. i find things to distract me. i don't talk about it, i don't speak about it. i buy and do insane and irrational stuff and call people i wouldn't have called ever unless something happened.
this time around i decided to stop my vacation i was granted, i don't sleep and just work on my design projects and finally i watch kids programs that i used to watch when i was 5.
so what i'm trying to say is i might have lost it but everyone needs to let me find it again. i'm sure that everyone has there own way of dealing with fear, disappointment and worries. what i'm really trying is to not talk about it so now it stops. you wont hear anything about it. i'm gonna go to work now and do what i obviously is good at, bureaucracy.
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